This past year I began dating an art teacher here in Houston. This was the fist time I have been in a relationship where I was envious of the talents of my partner. I was pleasantly surprised at the quality of his work, especially the range of media that he works in. I remember when I told him I can't draw I just know what looks good he tells me that he is going to teach me. (FYI I still can't draw, but he did explain the lines of heads and faces.) Well one day while at his place I grabbed some paper and these oil sticks and started doodling around and he tells me that its interesting how I did that. It was just three colors that faded from black to red to yellow. I figured he was just being sweet. One night he starts talking about water colors. My last expirence with water colors was probably back in '96 and from what I could remember it was so below basic I couldn't even take water color art serious. but as he starts explaining things and showing me how I can effect the colors in different ways it became really exciting. Shortly after that while helping a friend of ours set up her new house he tells her that I will be doing an art piece for her......WTF. I hadn't even expressed and interest. But it was a challenge he had set for me. (he knows I don't back down from challenges.) So me being be confident person I am state that not only will I do it, but it will be and Oil piece. I didn't quite understand the concern on his face until I began working on the piece.
Understand, I believe is planning. So I had a concept, but wanted to get my ideas out to him since I lack the vocabulary I just did a couple of drafts in watercolor. He kinda freaked about how they looked and began asking why did I do certain things. There was no reason besides I thought it would look good. He begins explaining negative space and that instead of subduing it I made it the focus. I didn't see the significance of what I did, but I saw how incredible excited and happy he was at that moment. So now its time for me to start our friends piece she loved the drafts. Wow someone else liked something I made, and really wants to hang something I created in her house (my mom never even displayed my artwork -although if I were my mom I wouldn't have either). Now I'm even getting excited and starting to think that maybe I do have some talent. So we pick up paint, canvas, a few new brushes, and I begin.....to make a mess of the paint. I didn't even realize there is a proper way to mix oil paint. So a quick lesson of pulling dark into light I get my underpainting completed. Wow 3 hours just to get the canvas a certain red/yellow/orange blend, and then 3 days for it to dry (and that was with the cobalt).
The whole process got me thinking about how many ways could I do this whole negative space thing. Well I came up with a few different ways, which turned one painting into a 9 (or 10) piece series. Which brings us to the present. Three pieces completed. Seven left. Seems like enough pressure huh...... No lets join DeviantART and showcase what you are doing. I really didn't think it through lol completely overlooking the fact that it will be online for anyone to see criticize, mock, love, hate or ridicule. One of my biggest fears; putting something I created out into the world and not being able to control who sees it and what they say about it.
So here I am I have crossed that boundary and left the safety of keeping my creations limited to a small group of friends that will always have something nice to say. Am I terrified....hell yes. But my confidence has never been higher.